32 weeks and going to labor and delivery?

I had my first 2 NST's (Non-stress tests) last week. The 1st was uneventful, except that because of the Memorial Day holiday, there were many emergencies from Labor and delivery that were taken a head of me (I was the 2nd appt of the day).

The one on Friday was a bit more eventful. (I was 32 weeks on Friday.) Some background for future generations or those that had babies prior to NST's :) . When you go in they want to measure the amniotic fluid in each sac, while doing so they look via ultrasound to see which direction the baby is facing. Then they hook up a monitor on each baby, as well as, a monitor to measure contractions of the uterus. Then they leave me there for 20+ min while the computer charts the heartbeats of both babies for any abnormalities and watch to see how many contractions I may be having. So on Friday, the nurse had a hard time finding any amniotic fluid in either sac to measure. At first I thought it was just hard because of baby B but when she asked the other nurse to come in and try we found that the fluid did seem to be a bit lower in baby A as well. I asked what that meant and they said normally we like to see over 10 but your fluid is measuring 5.7 and typically if you are under 6 we send you to labor and delivery. It was a bit of a shock to hear that baby A's fluid was low now too but they said the doctor would come look and make the decision in a few minutes. Well after 45 min of charting the heart beats they still hadn't come back to check on me. I had overheard some of them saying they couldn't find the doctor which meant I had to wait until they found him/her. Since I am still working, I like to get to work as early as I can or I have to stay later that day so I was getting a bit frustrated. I know I need to work on patience! It also gave me a lot of time to think about all that I didn't have ready for the babies arrival and was I really ready to go to labor and delivery today... no! I was relieved when finally the other doctor came in (Dr. Holmgren) and she took a gander at the babies fluid. She said after looking through that the fluid looked similar to the week before and since the babies heart beats looked strong and I had no contractions yet we should wait to see what the next NST would show Tuesday. I also asked her as we were looking at the babies if she thought baby B's kidneys looked a bit bigger and she agreed they did (even though we didn't measure). I asked her if that changes anything with our plan to wait until 34 weeks to make sure baby A is as far along as possible and she said she doesn't see it as a problem yet and may still want to wait until 36 weeks. She asked when the next ultrasound was and I told her Friday June 11th. She said let's wait until that appointment, see what the kidney's are measuring by then and discuss our options at that time. Ultimately it will be our call as parents but they will give their recommendations next week. After I left I started to wonder about the low fluid and didn't remember them saying anything from the week before so I have lots of questions for my NST appt Tuesday.



Over the weekend I had a lot of time to ponder about my upcoming delivery and what that means for baby B. Am I emotionally ready for the outcome whatever that may be? Can anyone really be "ready"? I am finding myself praying more continually for peace and comfort to know that whatever happens is the plan that our Heavenly Father has always had for baby B and for us. I am very grateful for a loving husband that keeps me grounded when I start to wonder and think to much about all that could happen. I am trying to prepare for the 4 outcomes we know about, realizing that our Heavenly Father could have 10 different outcomes that we are unaware of. I am grateful for dear friends that are willing to share their experiences with the deaths of their babies or health issues to know we are not alone in this journey and whatever happens we too will make it through and along the way learn the lessons we need at this time. There is a lot going through my mind and wish I could express all that I am experiencing. It is amazing how much I can love 2 children I haven't met yet. I can't wait to meet them!

Thanks again to all of you that have been so supportive the past several months! I am especially grateful for a wonderful mother who is willing to step in and help whenever she is asked and even when she is not. As well as a father who supports her leaving him for a day to help me and when asked steps in to help as well. And my brother and father-in-law that have helped Brad finish our playroom and other projects around our home to get it ready for the arrival of our sweet babies.

Thank you thank you!