The night before...

I know many of you have been waiting patiently for any sort of post from me.  I have thought many times about writing about the day Hunter and Cade were born but haven't had the words or energy to even start.  I still do not know how I want to remember that day but hope and pray that the words will come so that as I look back I can have a record of what transpired. Please be patient this will come in pieces.

Here is the final picture of my belly the night before the twins were born.

The days leading to July 8th were filled with sincere prayer asking our Heavenly Father to help us feel peace, comfort and understanding of His will for our family, whatever the outcome.  As I look back, the many prayers and blessings given always said we would understand and to have patience.  Those that know me understand that patience is not my strongest quality but I know that Heavenly Father knew that was what I needed to hear in order to continue to trust in Him.

Brad gave me a blessing the night before we went in. He blessed me once again to be comforted in knowing that Heavenly Father knows me and loves me.  He blessed me to be alert after the delivery so that if baby b didn't make it I would be able to remember the experience and enjoy the time we had with him. He blessed the doctors, nurses and those involved that they would make the best decisions for me and the babies.   He also blessed me to recover quickly from the c-section and be able to take care of what was needed.   As I look back I was hoping for our miracle but knowing deep inside that Cade wouldn't survive.

Brad also received a blessing a few days before from our home teacher.  He was told that Heavenly Father was aware of him and his fears.  He was then told to trust the doctors, nurses and medical staff to take care of me and the babies.  He was told he had the authority to call down the power of heaven to protect his family. He was blessed with strength to help me and support me that day and the days following their birth. Which he did and has been a HUGE support the past 8 weeks!
We both said a prayer that night that if Cade was not going to be a part of our family in this life that Heavenly Father would take him quickly and that he wouldn't suffer. 

And our prayer was answered.