June 06, 2010

Garage sale anyone?

This month is really getting away from me! I have been wanting to post pictures from my showers and document those fun moments with friends and family and so I will try over the next few days to get those up here too.

On Saturday Kim, Melissa, Linda and I, went garage sale shopping for Linda's birthday. We had a great time! I wasn't planning to buy very much but ended up finding some great deals on toys for our playroom like an almost new basketball hoop, fire truck, spiderman figurine, stand up play thing for kids learning to stand (not sure the official term) and many more fun items. Linda and Kim also talked me into buying almost 40 articles of clothing from one home that were like new. After washing them and folding them I am VERY grateful they did. They were all boy clothes for varying ages from 3 months - 2T and super cute! I got a great deal on them - I think she had mercy on me after finding out I was pregnant with twins. :)

Here are a couple pictures of all the fun treasures we came home with! This includes all of us not just mine! Thanks gals for a fun morning!



May 21, 2010

30 weeks and ...

I can't believe I am already 30 weeks today and that these babies could come anytime in the next 6-8 weeks (full term for twins is 38 weeks). I am still working 4 days a week - taking Wed off to relax. I am hoping to make it another 3 -4 weeks but it is getting harder and harder to make the drive to SLC every day in traffic, work 8 hours and return home in traffic again. So we will see how I do. I have had several people tell me I am crazy but I would be more crazy being at home all day doing nothing. I have also had other twin moms tell me that being at 30 weeks with twins is the same as a singleton mom at 9 months. That helped me not feel like too much of a wimp and realize I need to accept more help. They said I should limit my activities and preparations at home in between working and take care of me! I am trying but please keep reminding me. I am pretty stubborn after all. :)

In the past 2 weeks I have started to shuffle, you know like an 80 yr old that can't lift their feet to walk? Cause it hurts! I have also started getting winded walking up a flight of stairs and sometimes even just getting into bed! (We have a high bed) Heartburn and acid reflux are getting worse - good times! And of course sleeping longer than 2 hours at a time at night is rare. I know this is all a part of pregnancy and will only get worse. Just documenting for future generations and myself when I think about getting pregnant again! :)

We also picked up the crib and one of the dressers a couple weeks ago. My cute husband put the crib together and moved the dresser upstairs. The changing table/dresser is on back order and will hopefully be here by mid- June. I have the bedding all washed just need to put in the crib and bassinet. No decorations for the nursery, we will see if I get to that before their arrival! I do have a valance and drapes at least. Brad is working around the clock on our playroom. I know the babies won't need it quite yet but we figure life will be too busy to finish it later. And our nieces/nephews will need a place to play when they come to visit. (They used to play in the nursery room) We have tried to buy diapers and wipes along the way but realize we are still going to need more!

I am starting to gather items for my hospital bag and would love any tips from veteran mothers out there. Thanks to Linda, Mel and Kim for getting this list started for me last week! I have the basics - robe, slippers, socks, journal, scriptures, iPod, pen/notepad, laptop, Lansinoh cream and basic toiletries. I know I have more on my list at home but can't remember all.

Anything else moms??

May 20, 2010

Another ultrasound appointment...

We had our most recent ultrasound appointment at IMC on Wed afternoon. It is such a blessing with twins to be able to see our babies every 3 weeks moving around, being active, and seeing their individual growth. We will start with the growth stats first, keep in mind the day of the ultrasound I was 29 weeks 5 days and measured 38 cm.

Boy is measuring 29 wks 2 days
Baby B is measuring 30 wks 2 days
Boy weighs 3 lbs 1 oz
Baby B weighs 3 lbs 6 oz
Boy's heart rate 141 bpm
Baby B's heart rate 160 bpm
Boy is in the 50th percentile for growth
Baby B is in the 59th percentile.

We were surprised to see that baby B had outgrown his/her brother. The positives are that baby B is still growing and the heart beat is strong. The kidneys on baby B looked a bit more dilated than the last ultrasound and the bladder looked about the same size. We still have to wait until birth to see the extent of the kidney damage or if the lungs are present, to know the final outcome of our sweet baby B. I can feel baby B at times but with the low amniotic fluid the baby doesn't have very much room to move around. We can tell baby B is a fighter, every time we see her/him on the monitor they are trying to kick and move their arms around in very small quarters.

Our boy is growing steadily, his heart has all 4 chambers, bladder, kidneys etc.. all look good. He jumps around in my belly like a mad man and I can only imagine he will take after his dad! He was head down again this time but I swear just this past week he was doing somersaults in my belly!

We have our next ultrasound in approx 3 weeks and I start going in for stress tests 2 times a week starting the week of June 1st. They will continue to monitor both babies and we hope to make it at least to week 34 before the babies decide to come.

We are continually grateful for all the prayers and support we have received thus far. Much to the surprise of the doctors, we know that it is because of those prayers that baby B is still growing and are convince he/she will live until birth. We have also learned during this journey that we not only need to pray for the end result, but also thanks to a dear friend who has taught me the importance of praying more specifically for what exactly needs to happen, then leave it in the hands of the Lord. At this point we are praying that both babies continue to grow strong and healthy and more specifically for a miracle that baby B's lungs will develop as needed and kidneys will have minimal or no permanent damage. We would love for all of you to join us as well.

May 06, 2010

Realizations this past week...

I thought I would post some of my fun realizations this week. I am sure many of you can relate!

Hopefully you will smile a little bit!

Within this last week…
  • I started getting cankles - you know where it looks like my feet are connected to my calves and no longer to my slender ankles. I miss them! :)
  • My feet no longer fit in my shoes - they puff up over the top of my shoes and they look like mushroom tops!
  • Brad affectionately told me I started waddling like a duck.
  • Realized that finding a comfortable position to sleep in is never happening again.
  • At the end of working all day it feels like the babies are going to start coming "out" a little with each step!
  • I am SOOOO tired because...finally after trying to find a comfortable position all night I am so worn out by 5am I at last fall to sleep. So when the alarm goes off at 7am I have just barely slept 2 hours.
  • This is only going to get worse!

However, with all of this I am extremely grateful for the opportunity to finally be a mom and feel very blessed!! Most of all because Brad still thinks I am beautiful! I love it when he rubs my tummy and says "You have a cute preggie belly!" or "You are such a cute pregnant mom!"

Brad has also been an amazing support during the entire pregnancy, with all the bed rest I have been on and limits on activities, he has never complained. He has always been a great help around the house but in the past 7+months he has done most all the cooking, vacuums and sweeps the floor, does the grocery shopping and does all the laundry - while also setting up the nursery, moving furniture around, and finishing the playroom. He is an amazing husband and my best friend! I am truly blessed!


Hope you all have a great day!

April 30, 2010

Ultrasound appointment

We had another ultrasound appointment this past Wed April 28th. We had a crazy two days so I am just barely finding the time to post about this. So, here is the update...

Both babies are still growing which is a positive. Our boy measured at 26 weeks 2 days and 2lbs 2oz which is in the 50th percentile for growth (I was 26 weeks 5 days on Wed). Baby B measured 25 weeks 4 days and 1lb 10 oz which is in the 30th percentile for growth. The doctor said both babies measured in the same percentiles 3 weeks ago, so they are both growing at the same pace. If baby B drops below the 10th percentile they will worry more about the continual progression of growth. Our boy is still looking healthy and at this ultrasound he had flipped around and is now head down kicking his brother/sister in the head. :) Baby B is still breech and will most likely stay that way until birth because of the low amniotic fluid he/she is unable to move around as much.

They again measured baby B's bladder and kidneys and they seem to be staying the same size and not growing which for us is a positive. The doctors always have to be the procrastinators so we just listen and make our own conclusions. :) We actually really liked our perinatologist this time she was more upbeat and positive while at the same time acknowledging that we already know the worst outcome is the still born possibility for baby B.

She told us what she sees as the 4 possible outcomes should baby B make it to term. And at this point we won't know anything new until the babies are born. Baby B could be..
  • Perfectly healthy (very rare but still could happen)
  • The lungs could be underdeveloped or non-existent and the baby would only live a few
    hours after birth. Nothing can be done to fix this after baby is born.
  • The lungs are fine or will be but the kidneys are not functioning properly because of the obstruction in the urinary tract. They will not know the extent of the damage to the kidneys until 3-5 days after birth. Still not sure our options at that point depends on how severe the issues are.
  • There could be bone structure issues because of the cramped way the baby is growing in a
    sac with low amniotic fluid. Most of this is able to be corrected with casts etc...
More than likely I will deliver at the University of Utah hospital if baby B makes it to term (with twins that is 38 weeks but our doctor would like to at least see the babies make it to 34 weeks at a minimum, optimal would be 36 weeks) That way we are close to Primary Children's if any major surgery etc... is needed right away.

We still have faith that our sweet baby B will be healthy without many serious complications but also understand that all of this is in our Heavenly Father's hands. We trust that He knows us and what we need at this time. He also knows the mission for each of these sweet spirits and we know everything will work out as it should. We will do all we can until then to prepare ourselves both emotionally and spiritually for what ever the outcome will be. We do appreciate all the prayers on our behalf and LOVE getting the comments/emails of encouragement and faith.

Thank you, thank you!

April 27, 2010

Pregnancy moments...

I thought I would blog about a couple experiences as I am remembering them during this pregnancy.

First experience happened when we were traveling to Colorado Springs to look at some rental and investment properties on April 9th. We were sitting in the airplane and I looked down at my belly and saw it move for the first time, visually, when it was kicked. I promptly grabbed Brad's hand and he was able to feel our little boy kick and was also able to see the movement visually on my belly for his first time. It was a great moment for both of us! Here are a few pictures from that moment.

A funny side note...when Brad and I got to the airport that morning (a bit later than expected) we found that the security line was almost to the doors where you enter the airport. We only had 30 min before our flight left (I know we cut it way to short) and by the time we asked several people, super nicely, to let us go ahead of them we missed our flight by 2 min, they had just closed the doors! That was the first time I have EVER missed a flight. Nothing like spending 3 hours on those comfortable chairs at the airport, 6 months pregnant, as we waited for the next flight. And to top it all off, we had turbulence and they told us we could not get up to use the restroom or walk around. I had been cautioned by several people, along with my doctor to get up and walk around every 45min so this was not good news for me. Luckily, the nice flight attendant had mercy on the pregnant lady and allowed me to get up and walk around! Good memories though! We still laugh about it and had a great time!

Keep in mind this is my cell phone camera and I am taking self portraits.







Second experience happened last week as I was leaving work. Just a quick history - my ankles roll all the time but when you add a few extra pounds, most of it in front this is bound to happen... right? Anyone remember this post? :)
Well you guessed it, I was stepping off the curb and my right foot rolled all the way to the right side and I scraped the top of my foot...seriously still can't figure out how that happened. (see picture below) Then as I brought my left foot down to stabilize myself it rolled the opposite way to the left and I ended up on the ground. I landed on my right hip, I think, it happened so fast - it is all still a blur. The only thing I remember is exactly how my ankles twisted, random eh? AND the look on the woman's face as she watched me fall from her car as she was driving by.
Priceless!

The woman mentioned above stopped her car close by and came back to see how I was, along with another woman who was passing by and a nice young man in his early 20's. This young man was sweet enough to help me up and get me settled sitting on the curb to wait until my ankles stabilized. I told the ladies thanks for stopping but that I would be ok and they left. Then about 10 min later this young man let me hold on to his arm as we crossed the street to my car. I felt so old at that moment - like my old grandma needing help to cross the street, it was a bit embarrassing. However, as I look back, I am grateful for the compassion of a young man who went out of his way to help and 2 nice women who stopped to see if all was well. Another tender mercy...


(I had just taken off my brace to take this picture, again with my cell phone. It was still a bit swollen but not as bad as the picture looks - just wanted to document where I scraped my foot)
More fun stories to come...

April 25, 2010

Better late than never?

Wow, has it really been since November that I last posted? Time really flies and a lot has happened since then. For those that have no idea what we have been up to, I thought I would give a quick run down of the past 6+ months. Grab a snack... it is a long one! :)

As many know, we have tried to start our family for the past 6 1/2 years with no success. We tried several fertility options - several tests and appts with specialists (3-4 yrs ago), clomid (couple years ago for several months), super ovulation ( spring of 2009 2 cycles) and finally IVF (InVitro fertilization - Oct 2009). To educate some... super ovulation involves hormone injections for 3-4 weeks then ends with artificial insemination, when that wasn't successful we waited until after Girl's camp in June 2009 to set our IVF consultation appointment to start that process. Finally, after our original appointment in August was canceled because our doctor left the practice for personal reasons, we chose another doctor in the same practice to meet with a couple weeks later for the consultation. After meeting with the same doctor and gaining confidence in them, then having to choose another one to meet with was a bit stressful but as I look back very minor in comparison to the coming challenges we would face during this journey. After the consultation appointment in mid-September it was decided that we would start IVF during my next cycle at the beginning of October. There were 2 different injections at the beginning of this process daily then one injection changed to progesterone (can I say HUGE needle!) and was continued for several weeks. The pain in my hips will be a constant reminder of this amazing process. :) We have truly witnessed miracle after miracle during this process.

Long story short, after more miraculous events during our egg harvesting and transfer process, we found out on November 21st that I was pregnant! I will add a few entries documenting the process in more detail when I can. But here is a copy of the email I sent to family and dear friends when we found out. To explain a bit... the doctors were watching my fluid intake, weight gain etc.. because I had very enlarged ovaries (they are supposed to be the size of cherries and mine were the size of large grapefruits!) Many complications can come from this but will be explained in a follow up post.

Email:

Hello all,

Our doctor asked us to come in today to take the blood test to see if I still had to monitor all of intake of Gatorade and output from my bladder. Well, the results were positive. We are going to be parents! There are so many emotions it is hard to express in words. Calling our parents was exciting and also very emotional, our siblings were so excited! It is a great day in our home and we look forward to the coming adventures. Our main doctor would like to see another blood test Monday to verify I am pregnant but the level they are looking for is 100 and I was 200 so that looks pretty good.

I am still supposed to monitor my weight because if it goes up more than 2-3 lbs in a day I will have to start the monitoring, Gatorade and bed rest again. The doctor said I can resume my normal activities as long as I feel up to it but that my ovaries will be tender until I am 12 weeks along. They told me I am currently 4 1/2 weeks pregnant and that my due date is July 30th. We will find out in 3 weeks when we do a viability ultrasound how many heart beats there are and I will still have progesterone shots every day until Jan 1st. Good times! :)
We will be praying that I keep the baby(s) through the 1st trimester and would love any additional prayers on our behalf. We know we have gotten this far because of the many prayers from all our dear friends and family. I know I have expressed our gratitude before but we really couldn't have made it this far without all of you and your faith and prayers - we have felt them!


Thanks for everything!

Much love!
Brad and Angela

We then found out on December 9th, 2009 that I was pregnant with twins! What an exciting day that was for us. Another email to family titled "Three heartbeats" -

Hello,
I am sorry this is coming a bit late a few of you have called concerned something went wrong yesterday but all was well. I got home late last night from the doctor appointment and visiting teaching so didn’t get a chance until now to send this out.


Ok so Brad thought it would be fun to put the title “three heartbeats” to throw you off, he said “Well there is Angela’s heartbeat and the twins!” He thinks he is so funny! Anyway, the ultrasound went well we saw 2 tiny heartbeats and the sacs had grown a bit since last week’s ultrasound. Dr. Kirtly Jones said the heartbeats were strong and she feels good about how they look, one sac was smaller than the other but she said it is nothing to be concerned about. I asked about possibility of miscarriage and she said it is the same as with any normal twin pregnancy. There is a 20% chance I could lose one or both over the course of the pregnancy.
She also looked at my ovaries, they are a bit smaller but are still the size of a large orange. She told me to continue to take it easy and that by week 10 or 12 of the pregnancy they should be back to their normal size, which is the size of a cherry. My hips are pretty sore from the progesterone injections and after this appt the Dr. said I could start taking the progesterone a different way to save my poor hips. Halleluiah!


It was the last appointment I will have with the wonderful staff at the Utah Center for Reproductive Medicine on the U of U campus. The staff there have been incredible and I can never thank them enough for all they have done to help us get to this point in our journey. I have my first regular OB appointment on Dec 28th. It is still hard to believe we are really to this point, we feel extremely blessed!

Thank you, as always, for your kind words and continued prayers we have felt them!

Love,
Brad and Angela


I know this is becoming a LOOOONNGGG post but thought it best to catch those up that need it so I can continue to update my blog during the rest of my pregnancy. Thanks for your patience! :) Being pregnant with twins has been exciting and challenging all at the same time. Twin pregnancies are considered high risk - so we have the opportunity to see a perinatologist at the new IMC hospital on 53rd South every 3 weeks to check the progress of the babies. Here is the email from the first appointment on February 26th, 2010.

Hello again,

I know it has been a while since my last update but nothing to eventful has happened until now. Well, except I finally purchased maternity pants a couple weeks ago and can I just say that I suffered TOO long squeezing into my regular pants! I didn’t know I could be so comfortable in pants until then! It’s the little things isn’t it?

Anyway…we had our first ultrasound yesterday at the new IMC hospital with a perinatologist. (for those like me who have no idea what that means.. it is an OB subspecialist that monitors high risk pregnancies) Good news first. We found out that baby A (the one on my right side) is a boy! He is measuring at 18 weeks at 1 day (I was 18 weeks yesterday) and they were able to see everything but his spinal cord. He looks healthy and has a strong heart beat. They both move around like crazy – kicking and moving their arms – it is such a miracle to see.
We were unable to see baby B’s gender during the ultrasound. That baby’s heartbeat was strong, he/she measures at 18 weeks and 3 days, showed signs of most of the major organs but they were unable to see many things because the amniotic fluid was too low. At first the ultrasound technician told us that the low fluid would make it so she wouldn’t be able to see as clearly the gender because the ultrasound uses the fluid to enhance the view of the baby’s organs etc… She said that sometimes the fluid will get better over time and they would check it again at the next appt. We didn’t think after that explanation that we had anything to worry about. Then the perinatologist came in to discuss in more detail. She proceeded to tell us that there are several reasons why the baby has low amniotic fluid in its placenta - somehow my water could have broken early (I haven’t had any signs of that yet), they did a test and said until I am further along she wouldn’t be able to know that definitively but said my cervix didn’t look ruptured. – another reason could be the baby’s placenta isn’t able to do its job properly ( I know there is a more formal name or description she gave but can’t remember) – I could have had some random virus when I was younger that didn’t affect me but was passed on to my placenta (she took blood to test for this) – OR lastly, there could be fetal abnormalities/birth defects. She said kidneys may not be developing properly, his/her urinary tract could be blocked or there could be a congenital heart defect. She told us that there is a very small chance the baby can still progress normally and have a successful birth but then may have problems with his/her lungs since those are not seen via ultrasound, only at birth. She said there is also a possibility the baby could pass away while still in the uterus but that if that happens baby A should still progress normally and have a successful birth. Since it is still early, she said they will monitor the growth of the baby and if he/she continues to grow normally I may have to be on bed rest the last couple months of pregnancy and there is a small possibility the fluid can increase and the rest of the pregnancy will go along as normal. If you want to read more about this condition it is called
oligohydramnios, you can Google it.

As you can imagine we left the 3 hour visit to the hospital with many emotions and thoughts running through our heads. Of course we are excited to know we are having a little boy and that so far he looks healthy but also a bit discouraged with the knowledge that baby B may continue to have complications. After the appt, we ended up going to a birthday party for an amazing woman in our ward who just turned 99 years old. She is such a great example of faith and testimony. As we were there, we were able to discuss some of the day’s events with some of our dear friends, which increased our desire to have hope that things may still work out and that we will continue to trust in the Lord’s will for our family. Then with the encouragement of another dear friend Brad asked our Bishop to give me a blessing. The blessing mentioned several things about promises made and His will for us and our family which gives us even more reason to trust in Him. We will have to make some difficult decisions over the next few weeks and pray that we will be able to listen more intently to the Spirit as we are guided through this trial. We have leaned very heavily on our faith and testimonies of the gospel and know that whatever is supposed to happen for our family will be what is best for not only us but also the 2 spirits our Heavenly Father has entrusted us with at this time.

We, along with our immediate families, will be fasting together this next Sunday March 7th and would invite anyone who would like to join us to participate that day. We are so grateful for each of you and the many prayers and words of encouragement you have given us over the past few months. We couldn’t feel more love than we have felt during this past year.

Much love,
Brad and Angela


Most recent ultrasound email.... April 7th, 2010

Hi there!

We had another ultrasound today and will have one every 3 weeks until I deliver unless something more alarming shows on any future ultrasounds. Both babies have grown which is great news! Our little boy is still on target measuring 23 weeks 5 days and baby B is measuring 22 weeks 6 days which is still within normal ranges for how far along I am. Baby B still has very low amniotic fluid and the kidneys and bladder still look about the same size. The doctors had expected the kidneys and bladder to continue getting larger, so we are hopeful that where things have stayed the same this could be a good sign. We are still aware that everything is in our Heavenly Father’s hands but will continue to pray for our little miracle.
I have attached a picture for those I haven’t seen me recently. I hadn’t been excited to take pictures but after many friends have told me I need to document my developing belly I decided it was time. I am carrying both babies really low and today at the ultrasound they were both breech with one on each side. I have started feeling movement but nothing that is noticeable outside, Baby B is harder to feel but I can still feel some movement. They are both active when watching the ultrasound and even though baby B is more restricted we can tell he/she has a lot of energy.


We finally decided today on a crib and dresser set – YIPPEE! We can pick them up in a couple of weeks. I also order some bedding that arrived today. I am grateful for friends that encouraged me to register and go shopping a couple weeks ago to keep the excitement of having a baby front of mind! I think the news of baby B had caused that excitement to decrease so I am glad to be back! Thanks again for the many prayers and encouraging words…. Keep them coming! We still have our good days and sad days but are keeping our chins up.

Love,
Brad and Angela


The past 2 months have been a bit of an emotional roller coaster but we still hold on to the hope and faith that Heavenly Father knows what the plan is for each of our children and at this point we will not know anything more until our sweet baby b is born. At that time we will know more about his/her lung development, any damage to the kidneys/bladder or any other complications that can arise from low amniotic fluid. We continue to see the perinatologist every 3 weeks to check in on the babies development and know we will continue to see the tender mercies of our Heavenly Father during the remaining weeks of this pregnancy.

I will try to be better at updating this blog as we continue our journey... Thanks for your friendship and prayers!

Here is a picture from when I was 23 weeks along.